It’s Been Hard Day’s Night (Beatles)…information
and demands pouring in, doot-doot-doot, flooding
my always already bubbling, bubbling,
bubbling whirling-dervish brain, spattering all over my synapses, Primal
Screaming down my axons, threatening to erupt like a super volcano of
hormones, knocking down logical thoughts like tenpins, holding the lid on to
hold on to my job, hitting the door to my little nest, seeking relief, meeting,
“Do you know what the kids did today!”
“No, but please! Give me a minute to decompress! A minute? No? Gawd, why
me? Why me?”
Slick to the rescue: “Here, have some of this.
Sweet relief! Comfortably Numb
(Floyd, P) in seconds!”
Does that sound good or what? Better take a
look at the “Or what…”
Fast forward. Comfortable, yes. Alive? No. Baby’s first
steps! “That’s nice. I guess…” Your mother’s on the phone! “Too stoned. Can’t
talk to anyone right now…”
And…You think today was bad. Try tomorrow with
a come down…but…what to do with these feelings? I’m too stressed to think right
now!
I do
have a list of “If this, then that…”, so I don’t have to get creative when I’m
in this Condition Red state. I wrote it out when I created my program, in a
stress-free environment…
“Where is
that program? Why haven’t I been
working it? Do I enjoy being battered by my own brain?”
A reminder to encourage me to work that
program: Numb means numb. Numb to the real
pleasures in life. I can’t selectively numb out the painful emotions. I have
to go all-in-on-numb, enjoying the absence of all sensation for a brief moment.
A losing strategy in another way as well. The agitation begins to set in again,
slowly, mildly at first, but building, building, building, while the relief is
falling, falling, falling. The only “cure” is to cycle through more of the same
mind/body/emotion numbing toxins that numbed me out to the joys of life as well
as the pains.
And…a reminder to work that program all the
time. An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of weed cure.
Some types of neurons have no
axon and transmit signals from their dendrites. No neuron ever has more than
one axon; … Most axons branch, in
some cases very profusely.
Axons make contact with other
cells—usually other neurons but sometimes muscle or gland cells—at junctions
called synapses. At a
synapse, the membrane of the axon closely adjoins the membrane of the target
cell, and special molecular structures serve to transmit electrical or
electrochemical signals across the gap. Some synaptic junctions appear partway
along an axon as it extends—these are called en
passant ("in
passing") synapses. Other synapses appear as terminals at the ends of
axonal branches. A single axon, with all its branches taken together, can innervate multiple parts of the brain and generate
thousands of synaptic terminals. Me:
Multiplying the number of possible connections beyond comprehension. The human
brain is the most complex structure/system in the known universe.
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